Hi, you know what? I used to be cute. I mean REALLY cute! I used to wear quite stylish clothes and high heels. I used to do my hair, and makeup each day. I USED to even get compliments. I hate to admit it, but when I would walk down the street, construction workers would cat call. It used to disgust me when they would do that, I would think "ewwwwww SO GROSS! Don't they know I'm a human being who deserves to walk down the street without getting cat called?!?!" Nowadays when I walk down the street passed a construction site I hear crickets...or worse, if those construction workers are eating their lunch and happen to be sitting in my way, they move and say...are you ready for this? (sigh) They say, "Excuse us Ma'am." MA'AM?!?!?!?! I mean the NERVE!
The truth is, I'm a married mom of two little girls in my 40's who drives a mom van. I'm lucky if I get a shower without interruption. Going to the bathroom completely by myself is a good day! I choose sweats over skirts and gym shoes over heels. Not that I don't dress up periodically, but lets face it, doing laundry and playing outside with children while they are accidentally smearing peanut butter all over your blouse is not exactly conducive to 4 inch heels.You know what? I'm okay with it. My husband is okay with it. I could be in sweats and an old sweatshirt and he still loves me.
I know, I know, there are many of you who talk about "ME TIME." "You need some 'ME TIME' lady! You need to go out, have fun, take time out for yourself." Truth is, for me that is wrong! It's not about me anymore. I lived those days. They were great! A lot of fun and good experiences. I want to hang out with my girls and my spouse. I can take a break when the girls are at school or in bed. I will get "ME TIME" again when my girls move away and start their own families. I'll have plenty of time to recharge when that day comes. I don't want to look back and remember missing a moment in my children's lives because I was busy taking time for myself. It's not about me anymore. Often my lack of stylish clothing and shoes is because I'm busy spending my money on my kids, or investing it in my house. My priorities have changed and I own that. It works for me and I'm content and happy.
When you see me out running errands with my hair a mess, my favorite and most comfortable sweat shirt, sweat pants, and gym shoes on. Know that I'm happy this way. Maybe toss me a cat call or two. I will look at you with a heaping amount of indignation but on the inside I will be smiling.
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